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01. Ugly Side

I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean, I just choked up
But somehow I slept
I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing

I’m able to breathe
A sweet relief
Now that you’re here for me
A northern degree
Dove into me
Now I’m recovering

I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
Not my ugly side

So hook up a C.B. wave
A way for conversation flow
I’m shown to your cage, to wage this rage
Don’t let me go

A kick and a scream
Is all that seems to mean a lot, thus far
Yeah, I won’t let you on my stage, my page
You can’t know, but you have to know

That I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side

So calm…you’re so calm
And now it’s dark
I look for you to light my heart
I’m between the moon and where you are
I know I can’t be far

02. Clumsy Card House

By your side I’ll stay
If that’s okay
Then by your side I’ll stay forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you

A sunless day
It was a clumsy card house rape
If that’s okay
Then by your side I’ll stay forever

Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love
Forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall…

And all our kids will play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our heroes
And all our kids will play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our heroes
Believe in heroes

By the way
By your side I’ll stay
If that’s okay
Then by your side I’ll stay forever
I said forever.

03. Razorblade

In the day by day collision
Called the art of growing up
There’s an innocence we look for in the stars
To be taken back to younger days
When there was no giving up
On the people we held closest to our hearts

Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing
It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to… to every walk of life
I haven’t met another you since you were with me.

A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn’t love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
And in letting go, I am so proud of what I’ve done

In a way, I failed religion
I spit the wine from mouth to cup
And I reached for something more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children
And while your praying hands were up
There’s no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!

It is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to
You wounded them for life
You were a preacher and suppose to be above men

Sing with me

A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn’t love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
And in letting go, I am so proud of what I’ve done

Carry on
I carry on

04. Calling You

There’s something that I can’t quite explain
I’m so in love with you
You’ll never take that away
And if I’ve said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You’ll never take that away

Expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you’re okay when I’m not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you’re sleeping or you’re dreaming
If you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can’t believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost its sway
(It’s so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It’s not so difficult
The world is not so difficult)
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I’m on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I’ll take the words you gave and send them back to you

I only want to see
If you’re okay when I’m not around
Asking do you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you’re sleeping or you’re dreaming
If you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can’t believe you actually picked me

05. Chameleon Boy

I change my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here they are the bruises
Some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So I nod my head
I’m ready for the world to see
The secret I kept here inside the man you thought I’d be
Slip into coma calm
The coma where I calm myself down
Here comes excuses, why I let you down

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn’t become?
Chameleon boy

So now we’ve come upon the hardest thing I’ve ever done
It’s telling you that I’m a mess
What sort of mess I mean
A self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
While I play instead, the way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home and wish that I were in our bed
With this I’m telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do I ask you this?
Will you help me through?

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn’t become?
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn’t become?
Chameleon boy

I try to think of all the people I looked up to
While growing up who would I be
Now the twisted part
Where did all my idols end up?
They all passed away
Passed away

Stand by…
It’s the chameleon boy
Stand by…Someone stand by
I think I’m strong enough
I know I’m strong enough to change
watch my color change

06. Sexual Powertrip (One Big Life) Bla Bla

I’m sorry for the way I treated you
I’m stuck in my ways to just run
In the opposite way when things get comfortable
I’ll keep on licking till your flavor is gone

It’s getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with
“I love you”
I love you…ONE BIG LIE

Don’t trust my words when I’m in the bed with you
I’ll bring the message, but the message gets lost
Yeah you opened your legs and maybe
I promised you
You didn’t notice that my ankles were crossed

But, it’s getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with
“I love you”
I love you…ONE BIG LIE

Can you show me how to treat someone?
I don’t recall ever learning how
Because I keep fucking up
I keep fucking up

07. A Quiet Mind

A slow strangle with your feet on the floor
I’ve got 14 angels and we’re sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I’m in pain but I won’t let you band-aid my wound
I’m mad at a stage where I can’t seem to handle my own
I can’t even handle mine

You give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind… To combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find
But I have and I won’t let them go like I do with my friends…my friends

Still hearing voices… From front… From behind
They’re the reason I choose… When to live… How to die
When to cast… When to reel
When to buy… When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taught you
Being inappropriate will

Give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I…
I love you
You give me
You always give me
I love you until the end

08. 3 Weeks, She Sleeps

For 3 weeks, she sleeps
Through the rain
I’ve gotta try, to keep her dry
I run out of ways
Self books, love crooks
Steal her away
It’s who you know, and where you go
All in a day

La-di-dah La-di-dah…Ahh

09. Inner Glow

I’m like a storm cloud eager when you go wild
Calm again
I ask permission for the wrong to win
Drop the bomb and get your story out and get it on
In a haze the beginning of your days
Gonna fall down
Got to get back up but at your own pace
Got to fill your cup and find the way
Out of your own maze
Yeah boy what you said now

Hide the rule book throw it in the waste
Look strong
Like you belong cause you do belong
Whether right or wrong
You belong

I’m on your side if you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching celebrating wonder-making heart alive
Pride don’t keep it all inside
Don’t keep your aching, celebrating, wonder-making heart alone
Write your own song

Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song, the soul, the me I used to know?
Whatever happened to my radio?
Whatever happened to my song?
It is my song

So here’s a preview shove it under old-new
Or call it rock or pop or Bach or fuck
Goddamn where did we go wrong
Now there’s a category for every song

Yeah we only want to sing when we want to
Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to
Yeah we only want to fly by the side,
Making love to the rhythm be a Jeckyll and a Hyde
Yeah we only want a field we can run through
Yeah we only want a beat we can drum to
Yeah we only want to fly by the side,
Making love to the rhythm be a Jeckyll and a Hyde

So stride if you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching celebrating wonder-making heart alive
And pride don’t keep it all inside
Don’t keep your aching, celebrating, wonder-making heart alone
Write your own song

Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song, the soul, the me I used to know?
Whatever happened to my radio?
Whatever happened to the song?

Gonna wake up strong yeah, we’re all gonna wake up strong
So write your own song

10. Somebody

“So you dropped me
Held me by my feet and let me go
I fell between the seat, but nothing broke
I’ve yet to feel that brilliant afterglow
The one I knew of years ago
Now I’m twisted
Twisted from the waist and spun around
Promised only sky but given ground
I realize the makeup is for a clown
The clown I knew of months ago

I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
So here we are now, face to face
And I’m fucking you

So you caught me!
Wishing I were better than the rest
You hit me and left bruises on my chest
And when I wouldn’t cheat
I spit upon your test
The test I tore up weeks ago
And now my fist is
My fist is for your face to cock your jaw
When I begin to rise, you start to fall
Now you know how it feels to drop the ball
The ball I threw back days ago

I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
So here we are now, face to face
And I’m fucking you

So I’ll just stand right here for now
I should have won, but how?
I make a smart ass grin
Who let the loser win?
Let’s make a smart ass grin
Let’s let the losers win!

I only wanted to be somebody
So fuckin’ BAD, SO BAD…
Now you wrap this up
So fucking wrapped up
Wrap it up

11. Come In Closer

The first born, my heart will call Truly
A God-like boy of the sky
The fog hissed away like a movie
And serpents go home for the night
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on makeup for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
And how the wind she blows
How the wind she blows

I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer

Come dancing with devils
Need not know their name
We’ll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
Our souls become useless
As the day they were born
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

But still, the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
Where my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
Like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer
I really do

Come in closer
It’s your heart, your heart
Heart, In your heart

Friend Voice Mail:
“He cheated on me with some other woman. Its been a really BAD couple of weeks.
He cheated on me, with some other woman.”

12. Amazing

How am I supposed to breathe?
I try to relax. I touch your still frame
So I can watch you closer
And study the ways I believe I belong to you
I scratch at your waist line… your doll hair
I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow
So I make you my religion, my collision, my escape goat
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

Can you pretend I’m amazing?
I can pretend I’m amazing…
Instead of what we both know
I cut to the punch line baby
Can we pretend I’m amazing?
Instead of what we both know

And now our history is for sale
And for that I apologize
You see you’re my only know how…
The study of when I believed I belonged to you.
You see I’ve made you into something more delicious,
My sweet ghost…
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

Can you pretend I’m amazing?
I can pretend I’m amazing…
Instead of what we both know
I cut to the punch line baby
Can we pretend I’m amazing?
Instead of what we both know

There it goes back over there…